She walked, and as she walked she lost. Battle after battle it was an endless torture to each and every ending. Why did she fight? How was it that every single death was caused by her?
The blue sky denied her the right to feel despair. Chin up back straight, yet something weighed her down. A swirl of wonder, memories that could have happened if it weren’t for her, the achievements that were not achieved. It surrounded her seeped into her and then a flash. It blinded her.
‘Ah child, did you think I would forget about you? Or more that you would forget about me?’ She crumpled into a ball, acidic tears streaming down her face burning holes into her throat. Simply a punishment, it took away her ability to speak.
In her blindness she saw a woman standing over a mans body. This is how she always came. The man was, but a frivolous detail to make her seem different, a different type of strong. She wished people would stop, stop under estimating her third cousin. Unfortunately her plan always worked. Always.
Matredeme got up hastily as she was already late. While her loud cousins were mean and annoying they also acted as her alarm. Screaming and shouting at each other at 5:00 AM can come in handy.
She looked in the fridge for the third time. No food had magically appeared, just the same old jar of peanut butter and slightly molding banana. Feeling her stomach grumble more violently each minute she reluctantly grabbed the banana and ran to school.
When she got into the school building she cursed silently. A substitute was writing his name on the white board and she knew what that meant.
“Alrighty then.” The substitute said in a squeaky voice that made her cringe. “When I call your name please stand.” Here we go again, she thought. “Agust.” He said and went through the line of names from Agust to Madeline until he reached her name. She braced her self to be called ” Matter Dem” instead of how it was supposed to be pronounced. The senerios of embarrassment went through her head until they were washed away with a single word. “Maetre Deem” the subsitute pronounced.
She looked up surprised. He smiled knowingly at her and then continued the list of names.
LATER THAT DAY
“Morino” Somebody said. Matredeme looked up to see the subsitute standing over her. “I’m sorry, what?” She asked, confused to see the scrawny man standing on her front steps. “Morino, may I see her?” He asked nodding at the front door. “Oh, you mean my father?” “Yes, is she here?” He said seeming to get more anxious by the second. “Well, yes but…. I ‘m not she wants to see any body right now. Besides, I don’t even know who you are.” He stared at her making her feel very uncomfortable. Finally he said slowly” She will want to see me.” Matredeme squinted at him and then yelled ” Dad! Were you planning on seeing anyone!?” No reply. She sighed and opened the door never taking he eyes off his.
Inside the house was an unkempt house that was surprisingly empty. It was the kind of place where the house was just a structure. It had no meaning except for shelter. The walls were white and plain. The floor was old and scuffed up with shoe marking from frantically running through the house.
In the kitchen a lady sat in a rickety wooden chair in front of a table of the same style. She had thick ginger hair that just went past her shoulder in bouncing waves going in all different directions. She had sparkling green eyes that looked around aimlessly. Pale ruby lips held a smile that was not really a feeling only the way she held up her face.
“Hello.” She said in an emotionless voice. When the subsitute walked in matredeme looked down, her cheeks slightly redding . “Marino.” He said stopping in his tracks. Quietly she said. “Hi Dad.”